Is it my bad karma?

i haven't been a good soul. I think.
Someone up there must be punishing me.

I keep getting new problems at work everyday.
why?
being in the procurement isn't ez. haven't master the art of procuring + staff issue. How to overcome? I've only got a pair of hands, 1 brain, a pair of eyes & ears.

i can't keep going to my staff to ask if everything's ok, to find out if we're expecting any stock out situation... but seems like i'm plague by such scenarios. i'm fire-fighting everyday. there isn't a day that goes by peacefully.

i've already made clear my expectations to the team, they're free to manage their work. i can't be overseeing them doing the things i task them to do. they have the whole day to manage that.
They should manage me instead.

i've been an extremely good supervisor by going to them to see if they need help, by helping them to resolve issues... are they over-relying on me cos they know "she's always there", "she's resourceful"? Is this good trait of mine refraining them to be a thinker? I don't see my working level counterparts doing that to their staff. And that's why I see the rest pitiful, struggling to complete what's been assigned. That is bad. I'm trying to ease my team's load by working with them as a team. I'm not like other bosses who just tasked and not be involved.

I'm afterall a human. I've a family, I've my own life. I can't keep staying in office, resolving all damn issues. And worst still, all issues are chained. They led from one to another. They snowballed. It's an avalanche.

I need to find a job badly to remain sane.

*can i ask my staff whether her crytal ball can tell us what to expect thru-out the day, in the early morning, rather than such surprises?

I don't want to sigh deep everyday.
I don't want to appear in all taskforce meetings.
I don't want to frown & be grouchy.
I don't want to go home unhappy.
I don't want to affect my dear baby.
I want him to see me happy.
I'm getting palpitations.
I'm breaking down soon.