*emotion rides*

this week has been quite extreme with emotions.

/bz bee/
work has its usual craps with the retaliation needed to be done against what competitor did. actually there wasn't any retaliation needed. we have nothing to fight. no shields, no armour, no ammunition. only strength. nevertheless the team felt something needed to be done. it's a whirlwind of events, with so much things to do, systems, testings, biz case to approve & meetings.
i've met up with a lot of my suppliers this week. such joy to catch up.
i used to dislike meeting them, cos it's the usual hi-hi, bla bla bla, byes... but at least this around, i didn't stop them from meeting other ppl in the departments/teams. they all have the rights to do, to meet & call, to lobby. the evil KFC made me such a bitch. can't imagine i actually called my contacts in the past not to do this, not to do that... who are we to do that? why should we display strongly to their actions?
felt relieved after making clear to them, i'm not going to be bothered the next round when KFC asked me about my management skills with the suppliers/contacts. I DON'T CARE! bleh!

/good ol'times/
Catch up some old times on thurs with some ex colleagues who ventured into regional biz. they're men, in this industry, think regional is the way for them, local biz quite stagnate for such good colleagues.
we bitch big time abt office juices. in order to avoid names, nicks were given - triple Ks, the K head, KFC, cheapy... what a let out. phew!
The only prob was I took a huge glass of ice dark coffee. that left me sleepless the rest of the night, only to feel lethargic @ work the next day...

/filled with sadness/
Audrey's husband passed away.
I got the text in the cab on our way home.
Exchanged texts with frens and found that he didn't go work yesterday cos was feeling ill and fell from his flat in the afternoon. I wondered what happened, cos it's so sudden. We just met up last week. Over dinner & drinks, she's saying that they're preparing to have kids, and her MBA is completing soon, she's looking forward to be a mum... I don't really know her husband, but thru conversations, he's a very loving husband. Though he didn't have good education (not that Aud mind), he has his own biz & is doing very well. Aud is a very nice woman. Rich, yet with no airs, frank & real.

I was speechless. I cried, though I talked to Daniel only a couple of times when we had gatherings, with the thoughts, life is really so so short, just when they are doing their parenting planning, i thought about my man & I.
He loves me too. Really pampers me. I'm very blessed. He told me this is Daniel's life, plan has it that it's to end. We must accept it. The more I thought about those what ifs, the more i teared.

What if one day when I'm not around anymore, will he ever miss me? will he shed tears for me?
I know shd that one day comes, I'll miss him dearly, stay by his side & watch over him.
Like a guardian angel.