seeing things from a different angle

A recent talk with a friend brought me memories of my past relationships, how I treated those relationships, how I managed to walk out of them... Yes, they were painful when the wounds were still fresh then, even a year or 2 later.

Now, they're just lessons learnt. Although I used to hate those episodes of my life, I would just laugh off now. The wounds are no longer painful, though I'm still wary of such.

I've realised that I've never had the luxury of getting guys telling me that they like me and hence they want a relationship out of it. Never I have the moments of getting flowers from some guys, or anonymous ones to declare their undying love for me.

Hecks! I'm such a failure. I'm always the shadow of my pretty classmates, friends.. But during the school days, I guess it's always looks come first for many. Admitting aloud, I'm not pretty, but I have a good heart.
And I still believe good persons will be appreciated someday. [I hope my man do].
I'm always the one grabbing my own happines if I ever see one, cos over the years, I learn that "You're responsible for your own doings, hence your happiness too."

That's why I'm never ashamed to admit to the someone that I like him. I'm just plain honest. I did the same to my man without him telling me much.

Over the years, whenever I see my own relationships or others breaking down, the involved ones will feel sad no matter who said it.
I've seen & experienced too much myself.

The last time I felt really hurt, lonely & full of angst... I remembered reading this somewhere before... "这个世界上有很多寂寞的人和你一起孤独.".

So I must be strong I tell myself. I did. And I still do.

You are your only saviour. No one can really help you cos you know yourself best.
It's just a thin line drawn between your own angel & the devil in you.
You reap what you sow. Nevermind the hard work now, believe strongly that things will definitely be rosier, more beautiful... just be more patient.

I read this phrase recently...
"牵手需要勇气。但放手，需要更大的勇气。"

Try seeing things from a different angle like I did above.

No one feels too good either.

Perhaps life will be so much easier. It's easy to say than done. Nonetheless, just try it. Got nothing to lose, ya? Tell yourself, "Surely there's something in store for me to discover...", "I'll just go with the flow... and things won't get any worse than what I'm getting now...", "This route will see me grow from within, no matter what happens..."...

I walked out my own pain 5-6 years ago. The pain which I vividly remembered and to this very day, I still didn't know what causes us to part, but I've changed since then. Now that life is so beautiful & fun, I don't know if I'm still as strong like I used to if things are taking a turn. I hope I can.

I've given much freedom to myself. I'm taking my pace slower.

I'm much stronger & braver than I thought. I hope I'm still.

So, start thinking of a tagline to yourself... your life today.

You can start something too.