Can't wait.

I'm very tired now.
Weight never ceases to stop increasing.
Am very very clumsy. I can't even get up properly after sitting down on the floor for long.
My feet are extremely swollen & painful. I can no longer see the veins.
I'm having pains on-off.
Each pain or movement gives me anxiety.

"Is it now?"
"Why is there sharp pain here?"
"Should I or should I not feel pain like this? here?"
"Is this her movement or contractions?"
"I've never deliver before, what the hell this means?"

I'm having weird dreams every single nite.
For examples:

Dream #1: I was in the delivery room with my man, was pushing & halfway through the session, I said, "I wanna go home!" Next moment, we were packing our bags, got out of the delivery room and made our way home.

Dream #2: I was having some pains/contractions(?), when I felt my thighs growing horizontally. To my horrors, the baby made her way to my thighs, both sides internally. Morbid.

Dream #3: I delivered the baby myself. Gynae told me, "My dear, it's not time yet.". I managed to push the baby back into my tummy. Gross.

I can't wait to end this last lap.
Cannot wait.