13 days of having Heidi

It's been 13 days of having Heidi.
I have our share of ups & downs.
I could never know I could fall in love with someone @ 1st sight. I did with Heidi.
She's absolutely the most love-hate creature on earth now.

Loving her for her beautiful face, animated expressions, her coos, her smell and most importantly, she's the creation of me & Boon.

Hating her for her constant crankiness past 12mn to 6am everyday, her on-off sleep patterns, her irregular feed timing, her frequent poos after 12mn (yes, have changed 5 diapers frm 12mn to 6am, it's like 1 diaper per hour and all in-between her feeds), her fierce appetite for milk (she gets hungry one hour after an hour of her latching on my breasts), her impatience...

Haven't been sleeping well bcos of her.

This is the 2nd week since her birth and she has become more alert & eyes wide open. Last week was constant sleeping, probably still thinking she's in the womb.

Her jaundice level went down significantly and I'm still bringing her down for sun tanning in the morning before 9 for 15 mins after her 2 days in hospital for phototherapy.

I'm still trying to cope with her presence. I think I'm having those hormones affecting me, creating slight post natal blues, I feel emotional easily, cry at the slightest frustrations, having grouches at the tiniest incidents.

I hope to overcome such emos faster... cos it's really not healthy.

I hope I fair alright so far. And I pray this tiring 2 mths will get over soon.