getting all stress up

I'm getting all stress up.
Actually, it's not 'getting'. It's -- I'm rather stressed.

1stly, being new in the industry, I'm trying very hard to get myself tuned in full steam in the product knowledge, bridging work relationship between co-workers & clients...

2ndly, it doesn't quite help that my boss is remotely in Tokyo and I'm reporting to someone so remote that I'm on my own and I really don't know if I should cc him in every single email OR update him through phone call OR get advice from him OR get advice from co-workers... sigh... so many "I'm wondering if..." decisions that I've to make.

3rdly, everyone in the office seems to be extremely busy. No more talking cock sessions like I
used to do in the ex company. No more familiar faces. No more drama queen role from me.

Perhaps I care too much how people judgee me. How co-workers judge me. How the VP looks at me. How my boss judge me. Coz I'm rather new in this industy, I'm new to changing job, so I'm not sure if what I'm feeling is normal. Very normal.

Normal or abnormal?

I'm still wondering.