Sunday, April 16, 2006

mixed feelings

After the official paper announcement of cutting 40-odd middle managements, no second guess that further cut will be driven down to the managers and junior officers...

Unofficial sources whispered that there is a "Volunteer Scheme"... and then it became rather opened and now it's like the butt of the joke whenever we gathered for a coffee session or lunch, "Oei, want to volunteer to be chop? not bad leh, 5 years of service, can get the $$ and then find another job...hahaha..."

I wish at times, the person up there could give me some clear indicative directions, so that I won't be hesitant making decisions.

The stories of cutting are becoming more apparent that vendors have been calling me if our division will be affected, many were in shocked when they knew how much's my payroll. All said in unison, "Girl, why are you still here?". The truth is I don't know why. Perhaps, I'm lazy. But then, fearful, cos it's been 6 long years since my last interview. Otherwise, it could be because I thought I'm still "not there yet".

Having many encouragements from vendors-turned-friends, my man & my bro..., perhaps I should really brave out.

As one has put it aptly, "Why stay in the same shit with this meagre pay, when you can get a higher-paid shit?"

There's some truth in it, I guess.

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